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Follow my facebook cosplay page!
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Hi guys!
I polished my facebook cosplay page and it's up and running again!
I understand that a lot of you follow me for my cosplays, so it's probably the best place to be up to date on my cosplay endeavors and cosplay life. I decided to remove anything related to cosplay from my personal account, so anything and everything that has to do with cosplay will be on the page, instead. Also, all of my cosplay pictures are there, as well, so it's a good place to find my pictures~
So, if you want to be up to date with my cosplay life, I highly recommend following it, since you'll hear from me on there, first.
Lots of love,
Jackie
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End of Summer
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I feel like I should give an update on what's been going on and what my future plans are. I keep changing my mind on what I will do with cosplay but I'll expand more on this later.
All in all, this summer has been one of the most eye-opening periods of my life.
Quick summary:
In the first half, I had a spat where I quit Hetalia Meetups Chicago and cosplay, took health at my school to get the credit out of the way, went to Anime Midwest and considered returning to cosplay, hung out with my cosplay/meetup/con friend group a bit and had a coca cola addiction intervention.
Then, I went to an all-girls engineering camp at the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign, went to Wisconsin Dells with my family, my grandfather had a stroke while visiting (he's ok, he's making a strong recovery), went to Lollapalooza, went to my last year at Girls Rock! Chicago (a nonprofit camp that takes girls and teaches them to play an instrument and puts them in a band where they write original songs and perform and record them and they also teach about female empowerment), then went to marching band camp (and technically still am) and start the eleventh grade on Tuesday.
So in total, it was a summer jam-packed with great experiences and life-changing events. The end result is that I am now a lot more focused on what matters (school) and have my priorities straight. So sure, it didn't really happen in order, so I didn't realize it soon enough, but now I do. At engineering camp, I made a lot of really great friends and I figured out what I want to do with my life and what I have to do to get there. The good thing is that all my friends there have similar goals and we can help each other and give each other advice. The most significant influence I had is my friend, Marilu, whose family isn't the richest, but she instead collects scholarships and tries her absolute hardest to get opportunities so she can one day go to MIT. She's absolutely incredible and really smart and I really look up to her. I realized that a 3.73 GPA isn't going to get me into the schools I want to get into despite it being relatively higher than the GPAs my school friends might have. I am not necessarily a smart kid at first glance and I really need to focus on school and get my GPA above 4.00 and get more extra-curriculars.
The next thing I realized is that I need to FOCUS in order to do so. And in order to do so, I need to get rid of distractions. I don't know how big a factor it was, but maybe being president or whatever of a cosplay group thing isn't the best thing to do right now. I need to get into college and for something that I can't put on my applications, it took up way too much time.
I am actually extremely thankful to a certain person now because if it weren't for them threatening me and my choosing to leave because of them, I would still be entranced by this idea of being an important cosplayer and trying to make cosplay friends. I mean, I was at acen all weekend instead of studying for finals, how fucked up is that? I'm glad that I cut most of my ties because now I don't have that distraction anymore.
As for marching band, I was put on auxiliary without even being auditioned and I was upset at first but this is actually really good because now I have an easy part (gong, suspended cymbals, concert toms, and djembe) that I've already memorized, I don't have to march, and I'm still in marching band and can put that on my applications. That pretty much translates to I'm still in marching band without it being something I have to focus on too much. Now I can focus on school.
So I've decided that my only real distractions this year will be my tumblr and maybe twittertalia on the weekends only and I might try and work Ableton Live so I can make dubstep mixes but that's more for when I'm out of marching band. I also want to take up learning java and other computer codes and maybe getting an internship or something to put on my apps (I want to go into computer science and engineering). I might go to a con or two if my grades are good but I don't really see the appeal anymore.
So really my goal this year is to do well in school and make myself appealing to top universities.It's extremely important for me to get into a good university because if I don't, my parents won't pay for my college tuition (and will have to emancipate me so I can get loans, which is pretty much disowning and that's not good). It would also be vey humiliating if I didn't since both my parents did on scholarships and pretty much groomed me for success and handed everything to me on a silver platter so it's very stressful and this is sometimes why I have anxiety attacks but I haven't in a while and I now have a game plan and know what I want to do and what I have to do to get there.
I used to think that anyone at my level could get into a top university but I now realize that I really have to get myself there, now that I see tons of people I know going to community colleges. It's opened my eyes and I need to focus now.
So that, my dear friends, is why I'm not going to do cosplay stuff much for a year or so. I have to get into college first, and I can't do that with unnecessary distractions.
~Jackie
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Recovery?
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Alright, so about a month ago, I left Hetalia Meetups Chicago and decided to quit cosplay and fandom stuf, so on so forth.
In that month, I realized a few things.
My first realization was that I can't just get rid of Hetalia in my life. Since the seventh grade, I've had a rocky relationship with my mother and my family in general. I've had a lot of friends come and go. Through that all, Hetalia was the only constant in my life. At least for now, it's a part of me and one of the only things that keeps me sane and I'm not going to give it up because some people piss me off.
So I decided to focus on my tumblr (just reach the 1500 follower mark! 
), my fanfiction, and roleplay. It's nice. I really miss writing. I've always loved creative writing and I used to attend classes on it all the time. I'm going to try to start a creative writing club this upcoming school year. It's a nice outlet, too. Roleplay is more of a side thing for me. I like to use it to warm up, write some drabbles, get creative ideas flowing, meet people who I can bounce AU and headcanon ideas off of. Test things out. So in the last month, I've befriended and really great Prussia roleplayer who 'plays some great PruCan with me. Best part is that they're cool with 'playing via text, which is my favorite means. I've also joined two roleplay rings on tumblr and started an independent roleplay blog.
), my fanfiction, and roleplay. It's nice. I really miss writing. I've always loved creative writing and I used to attend classes on it all the time. I'm going to try to start a creative writing club this upcoming school year. It's a nice outlet, too. Roleplay is more of a side thing for me. I like to use it to warm up, write some drabbles, get creative ideas flowing, meet people who I can bounce AU and headcanon ideas off of. Test things out. So in the last month, I've befriended and really great Prussia roleplayer who 'plays some great PruCan with me. Best part is that they're cool with 'playing via text, which is my favorite means. I've also joined two roleplay rings on tumblr and started an independent roleplay blog.Throughout all this, I've met up with and tried to connect with friends that don't have anything to do with Hetalia. Although, I did meet up with my best friends from HMC (ya know, the Family... Nikki, Diana, Riley, Yas, Molly, etc) a couple times because hey, they're my best friends. We didn't do that many Hetalia-centric things, though, so I guess they don't even count as a Hetalia thing. Anyway, I've been hanging out in general with my school friends (Jimmy, Jane, Jack, Georgi, Chris, Siobhan) around here and downtown. Jack went with me to the Zombie March downtown where I met up with some friends from my old rock band summer camp, Girls Rock Chicago, as well as Holly, who was taking tons of pictures, as usual =w= I also went to the Pride Parade with Jimmy, Siobhan, and Chris, which was super fun. Jimmy, Jack, Ellie, Siobhan, Will, and I are supposed to go to the beach later this week for Jimmy's birthday. Then I'm supposed to go shopping with Rachel downtown on Saturday. Busy, busy, busy! But yeah, my point is that I'm reconnecting with my non-Hetalia friends. It really helps because a huge part of my crisis was thinking that I didn't have any friends left, no one actually liked me, so on and so forth. Best way to remedy it? Surround yourself with people who do like you.
I've been meandering around tumblr so I've done a bunch of cosplay tinychats. Haven't worn a cosplay outside of the house, though. I still have them and use them, though, so I guess that means I haven't given up on them entirely.
So this past weekend was Anime Midwest, which I was originally supposed to go all weekend, host a panel, and host a meetup. Of course, after all the shit that went down a month ago and my quitting of everything, I asked a friend to take over my panel, cancelled my meetup, and thought long and hard about whether or not I wanted to go. I decided not to go on Friday as to stay out of a certain person's way. I didn't want to deal with them. I heard crazy shit went on at the Hetalia photoshoot, anyway, so I'm kinda glad I stayed out of it. Besides, my mom took my sister and I downtown to go shopping on that day and I got some really cute clothes! I digress. So yeah, didn't go Friday, tried to go Saturday, but no one could pick me up, so I stayed home again, and then I finally got to go for a bit on Sunday. It actually worked out really well because by Sunday, my friends had already befriended people that weren't associated with anyone I was avoiding so I did get to meet some awesome Hetalians! That was a huge relief. I also got to meet Todd Haberkorn, so that was a huge bonus. I won't talk about the things that weren't that great, though. Oh yeah, I didn't cosplay. Didn't feel like it. Too many know my cosplays and I thought it was best to lay low and pretend that I wasn't me. though it was awful painful to watch that one person take over and run the photoshoot. I, for one, was quite frightened. But all in all, I thought my attendance was a huge step. I'm considering continuing to go to cons. Mostly for the merch, though 
Speaking of merch, I bought a bunch of stuff to throw in my tumblr giveaway. I'll post about it here when I launch it.
So, in summary, I'm slowly coming back. I've started to add carefully selected people back on my facebook. Some got deleted again immediately, but at least I've been able to keep some! Triggers and all. The one person is leaving the country soon. They've also messaged me on tumblr, by the way, and I don't think I should talk about it in too much depth, but I am satisfied with my response. Being hostile never works out well, mind you. Always be nice to people because the results are just better. Sure they weren't a month ago, but what can people say about you if you're nice? Life lessons, kiddos.
I have no plans to attend any meetups or anything strictly HMC-related for a while, but I do want to go to conventions and hang out with specific people. It might be a while before I pull my cosplays back out, but eh. I can't really say much about rejoining the Hetalia fandom in real life as strongly as I did before. I was naive, too hopeful, desperate. Cynicism exists for a reason. Although, I still kinda wanna plan a meetup of sorts just for the people that I like and trust. So it's getting better and I'm looking forward to some type of recovery 
~Jackie <3
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Hetalia Cosplay Hiatus
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I'll be taking a hiatus on cosplay pertaining to Hetalia. This may also stretch to Homestuck or anything else where there's a notable amount of people who are fans of either Hetalia and/or Homestuck. I ran into a bit of trouble and people are blaming me for a bunch of things and I'm pretty sure that I am shunned from both of these Chicago communities. I acknowledge that I am a significant part of the problem so I'm removing myself from both until things hopefully blow over. It will be very hard for me to completely leave the Hetalia fandom, since I am still in love with the series and things that don't relate to cosplay. Also because I've been a fan of it for three and a half years so it's weird not to have it in my life. But I will try to leave it since the cosplay aspect fuels a lot of my mental issues.
Until, then, I'm going to exploring other fandoms, trying to meet new people, and maybe getting back in touch with old fandoms and things! (which means you might see a lot more of me on here! ^w^)
This summer, I plan on watching new anime and getting into more fandoms. I also want to try and wane off of Japanese things and get into more western fandoms, since I've left those almost completely untouched and I won't have to worry about seeing people from my old fandoms. Besides, what better motivation to work out than to cosplay sexy comic book women?
Jimmy and Yasmeen have been giving me suggestions of new fandoms to join. I really want to join the Animal Crossing fandom. I'll be selling my cosplays in order to buy a 3DS and the new game. But if you have any more suggestions of fandoms or series to try, let me know!preferably ones that are relatively sane and don't have crazy people
Thanks guys, here's hopes to a fun summer!
-Jackie
Until, then, I'm going to exploring other fandoms, trying to meet new people, and maybe getting back in touch with old fandoms and things! (which means you might see a lot more of me on here! ^w^)
This summer, I plan on watching new anime and getting into more fandoms. I also want to try and wane off of Japanese things and get into more western fandoms, since I've left those almost completely untouched and I won't have to worry about seeing people from my old fandoms. Besides, what better motivation to work out than to cosplay sexy comic book women?
Jimmy and Yasmeen have been giving me suggestions of new fandoms to join. I really want to join the Animal Crossing fandom. I'll be selling my cosplays in order to buy a 3DS and the new game. But if you have any more suggestions of fandoms or series to try, let me know!
Thanks guys, here's hopes to a fun summer!
-Jackie
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Convention Season 2013 - Cosplay Plans
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First, though, I'd like to apologize for the spam of cosplay photos from three events 
That's what happens when I procrastinate updating this account.
Anywho, this has been posted on both my tumblr and facebook, so I suppose it should go here as well.
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Under each convention is my main cosplay project goal for that con. Other days will be filled with cosplays I already have. I know having a new cosplay for almost every con is a little ambitious, but eh, a girl can dream at least, right?
• Anime Midwest - July 5-7, 2013 - Rosemont
FRIDAY - [daytime] WW2 Romano / [night] Maid!Hungary
SATURDAY - [daytime] Pirate!Spain with Chibi Romano (my sister) / [night] Rev!England or WW2 Romano
SUNDAY - Sailor!Dave Strider
****I also need to make Chibimano for my sister and some form of England for Jimmy. This is the convention where I have a panel, so do keep up with that!
• Soy Con - July 19-21, 2013 - Rolling Meadows
I still have no idea if I can go, but if I do, it'll only be Sunday (I'll be in Champaign for Friday and Saturday). If I do, Sweet Devil Ameriko~
• Hetalia Day - October 27, 2013 - Lincoln Park
WW2 Romano or Rev!England
• Kollision Con - November 15-17, 2013 - Rosemont
Sayaka Maizono (Dangan Ronpa)
• Domo Con - December 13-15, 2013 - Lisle
Ib and Garry set w/ Jimmy
• Anime Apocalypse - December 27-29, 2013 - Rockford
Don't know if I'll go, but if I do, it'll only be one day and I'll probably do Hetalia for Rizia's panel. I won't do any new cosplays.
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• Uchi Con - January 2013 - University of Chicago
America - Cardverse King of Spades
• C2E2 - April 25-27, 2013 - McCormick Place
Hit Girl? lol idk
• Anime Central - May 16-18, 2013 - Rosemont
hahahahahaaaa fuck that i have no clue
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Things to do in downtime (which I don't seem to have) :
-Get something to wear for China
-Finish Little Red Maple Hood
-Get a gakuen uniform
-Rev!England, if possible, to match with Nikki B, since it can also be used for 1812 Canada
-España for me or Jimmy or idk, someone, anyone
-Style Canada wig
That's what happens when I procrastinate updating this account.Anywho, this has been posted on both my tumblr and facebook, so I suppose it should go here as well.
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Under each convention is my main cosplay project goal for that con. Other days will be filled with cosplays I already have. I know having a new cosplay for almost every con is a little ambitious, but eh, a girl can dream at least, right?
• Anime Midwest - July 5-7, 2013 - Rosemont
FRIDAY - [daytime] WW2 Romano / [night] Maid!Hungary
SATURDAY - [daytime] Pirate!Spain with Chibi Romano (my sister) / [night] Rev!England or WW2 Romano
SUNDAY - Sailor!Dave Strider
****I also need to make Chibimano for my sister and some form of England for Jimmy. This is the convention where I have a panel, so do keep up with that!
• Soy Con - July 19-21, 2013 - Rolling Meadows
I still have no idea if I can go, but if I do, it'll only be Sunday (I'll be in Champaign for Friday and Saturday). If I do, Sweet Devil Ameriko~
• Hetalia Day - October 27, 2013 - Lincoln Park
WW2 Romano or Rev!England
• Kollision Con - November 15-17, 2013 - Rosemont
Sayaka Maizono (Dangan Ronpa)
• Domo Con - December 13-15, 2013 - Lisle
Ib and Garry set w/ Jimmy
• Anime Apocalypse - December 27-29, 2013 - Rockford
Don't know if I'll go, but if I do, it'll only be one day and I'll probably do Hetalia for Rizia's panel. I won't do any new cosplays.
====2014====
• Uchi Con - January 2013 - University of Chicago
America - Cardverse King of Spades
• C2E2 - April 25-27, 2013 - McCormick Place
Hit Girl? lol idk
• Anime Central - May 16-18, 2013 - Rosemont
hahahahahaaaa fuck that i have no clue
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Things to do in downtime (which I don't seem to have) :
-Get something to wear for China
-Finish Little Red Maple Hood
-Get a gakuen uniform
-Rev!England, if possible, to match with Nikki B, since it can also be used for 1812 Canada
-España for me or Jimmy or idk, someone, anyone
-Style Canada wig
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